so of course, change is inevitable. change is unstoppable. change occurs even when we least expect it to. the barrel of apples that we so neatly [and in a very OCD way] have arranged that happen to be the fruit of our life topples over and even when we pick the pieces up, there is no way to arrange them exactly the way they were. the way they used to be. the way we wanted them to stay. we have to pick each one up, one by one and find a new order for our existing chaos in this world.
why is that so hard though?
it's like we get so set in our ways that change has to happen for us to move forward, to realize our potential, to realize we are capable of so much more. these changes can be pretty traumatic. the ending of a long time relationship, a job, a friendship. the beginning of the end of what "familiar goodness" felt like. comfort is a killer. you get comfortable and you stop reaching for more. you get comfortable and you accept people and situations into your life that completely diminish the value of it. and the worst part of comfort is that it's a clear blindfold. you never see it coming and you never know when it's on, especially when it's been on a long time. people can point it out -- see through the clear coating and tell you "LOOK HERE IT IS" but you, in all your frustration, can't see it. until change forces you to. and all that was light to you becomes dark. temporarily, but after realizing that you'd been walking around blind to begin with, acceptance takes on a whole new shade.
time to start over. time to do something different. time for something new. something to revitalize your spirit, hopes & dreams. you forgot what that felt like. you'd gotten so used to not feeling anything of importance that you gave up on you [inside] and the outside became an ugly reflection of that. how to change that? how to pick up those apples, eat some of them, throw some away and keep pushing on with some in the cart. that would mean changing your way of thinking, your way of feeling, listening, hearing, talking and being.
change you.
for the better.
